Sunday, October 3, 2010

How To Like It

Tuesday and Friday mornings are harvest mornings. The Down Gardeners meet in the Veggie Shed at 7:30 or 8:00 AM (depending on the size of the harvest and the projected temperature that day). The current market cart coordinators greet the rest of us and review the flowers, fruits, vegetables, and herbs with which we will be working. The amount, presentation, and destination of each item has been carefully determined ahead of time based on past sales and what the garden has to offer.

Following the business discussion, the floor is opened to all present individuals to share poetry, excerpts, interpretive dances, freestyles, etc. Most often people share poems relevant to farming, environmentalism, the current crops, and lately of the changing season. Even though it has felt more like summer in the past few weeks than any past months, there is a definite scent of autumn about. Pumpkins, apples, butternuts, and delicatas find their way into most meals. We find ourselves rising before the sun. Not that we ever stopped wearing our flannels and wool caps, but they at least seem appropriate now.

A restlessness underlies all of the usual tasks. There are only four more harvests. It is almost time to move on. Some people have their plans; others have nothing but uncertainty. We are all young (even if more at heart than in age) and looking for meaningful work and time. We are anxious, and maybe even scared about leaving this place and each other. Ian really chose the right poem to read last Tuesday morning.

How To Like It

By Stephen Dobyns

These are the first days of fall. The wind
at evening smells of roads still to be traveled,
while the sound of leaves blowing across the lawns
is like an unsettled feeling in the blood,
the desire to get in a car and just keep driving.
A man and a dog descend their front steps.
The dog says, Let’s go downtown and get crazy drunk.
Let’s tip over all the trash cans we can find.
This is how dogs deal with the prospect of change.
But in his sense of the season, the man is struck
by the oppressiveness of his past, how his memories
which were shifting and fluid have grown more solid
until it seems he can see remembered faces
caught up among the dark places in the trees.
The dog says, Let’s pick up some girls and just
rip off their clothes. Let’s dig holes everywhere.
Above his house, the man notices wisps of cloud
crossing the face of the moon. Like in a movie,
he says to himself, a movie about a person
leaving on a journey. He looks down the street
to the hills outside of town and finds the cut
where the road heads north. He thinks of driving
on that road and the dusty smell of the car
heater, which hasn’t been used since last winter.
The dog says, Let’s go down to the diner and sniff
people’s legs. Let’s stuff ourselves on burgers.
In the man’s mind, the road is empty and dark.
Pine trees press down to the edge of the shoulder,
where the eyes of animals, fixed in his headlights,
shine like small cautions against the night.
Sometimes a passing truck makes his whole car shake.
The dog says, Let’s go to sleep. Let’s lie down
by the fire and put our tails over our noses.
But the man wants to drive all night, crossing
one state line after another, and never stop
until the sun creeps into his rearview mirror.
Then he’ll pull over and rest awhile before
starting again, and at dusk he’ll crest a hill
and there, filling a valley, will be the lights
of a city entirely new to him.
But the dog says, Let’s just go back inside.
Let’s not do anything tonight. So they
walk back up the sidewalk to the front steps.
How is it possible to want so many things
and still want nothing? The man wants to sleep
and wants to hit his head again and again
against a wall. Why is it all so difficult?
But the dog says, Let’s go make a sandwich.
Let’s make the tallest sandwich anyone’s ever seen.
And that’s what they do and that’s where the man’s
wife finds him, staring into the refrigerator
as if into the place where the answers are kept-
the ones telling why you get up in the morning
and how it is possible to sleep at night,
answers to what comes next and how to like it.

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